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I'm back after a long time. [12 May 2008|10:34am]
[ mood | calm ]

and I'm a completely different person than I was. I was reading old entries from a year ago and I was amazed at the difference in my life.

I've lost all of my friends because they got far to deep into my personal life. I'm trying really hard to grow up and they were holding me back.

I'm going to start writing in my livejournal again because I've deleted my facebook and my myspace. It was the smartest choice of my life.
<3

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[14 May 2007|04:03pm]
It's been a while.

I have no job, sort of.
I have no money, sort of.
I love my life right now, sort of.

There's a lot of mixed up shit going on.

In general, things are just okay.
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[28 Mar 2007|05:40pm]
I started my diet monday.

I have one thing to say about it.



It fuckin sucks.
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[13 Mar 2007|02:55pm]
DAMNIT MAN.

I took today off from work because...I hate work?

Lol, I want a job I will actually ENJOY.

I want funnnn.

If you know this job. Let a bitch know.

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How do you feel about this? [28 Feb 2007|09:48pm]
So, listen to this: I need more in my life. That question: Selfish? OR goal oriented OR bored?

Why does it seem like no matter how much one person has or how much they have earned and what they have gone through to earn it they still take what they have for granted and no matter what they seem to always want more. Weird. But, I am the same way. I have a lot but, I want more. I do take what I have for granted.




Um. I will write the rest of this later....
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[26 Feb 2007|10:17pm]
[ mood | angry ]

I FUCKIN HATE MY LIFE.






I FUCKIN HATE MY LIFE...SO MUCH

I'M UNSURE ABOUT MY LIFE NOW.

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Ah fuck that. [25 Feb 2007|01:41pm]
I have never been so bored. HOLY SHIT.

I am going Monday to Collier Regional Hospital to see what I can do about getting a job there. I applied online too. I have to be "clean" though and I'm not.

Collin got fired from Petsmart, that makes it a lot easier to work there until I get a job in this hospital...hopefully.

Richie and I are doing AMAZING. We just had our 1 year 4 month anniversary.

I am moving into an apartment soon. TIGHT.


Pretty much, everything is going very well!
<3
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[30 Jan 2007|01:57pm]
HAPPY MOTHER FUCKIN EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY TO ME.

Have a GOOD night.
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[26 Jan 2007|07:42pm]
Collin.



YOU ARE AN IDIOT.

Thanks for nothing why you were here LOSER.



Anyway. Today was a good day and TONIGHT HOPEFULLY is going to be even BETTER.

I went CAPS crazy.
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[24 Jan 2007|09:21pm]
I had a really good day today and I have tomorrow off so, I get to sleep in really late. Do you know how amazing that is? Really amazing.

I have this weekend off and I think I am going to the East Coast with Richie to see his aunt and his grandparents again. It should be fun.

I want another job when I turn 18 for more money but, I also don't want to lose Petsmart because I really like all of my co-workers now that I don't have to deal with Michelle. Agh. This sucks. I think I am still going to go to the Ritz for like 10 dollars an hour fo sho.

Everything is moving along very well, Richie and I are doing amazing I am happy with my job and have an oppurtunity to get a better one if I like, the only thing that is a little slower is the whole school thing. I need to apply to get into college as soon as I can so I can get started on the whole radiology thing.

ANyways, today was a really good day
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[22 Jan 2007|11:51pm]
I'm 18 in 8 days and I have SO much to get accomplished in the three weeks afterwards.

First off. I am having a party =]

Today: I had a bad day at work and then the most amazing boyfriend in the enitire world gave me the greatest one year three month anniversary EVER. I love him more than I love anyone else. He is my life and I am his. We wouldn't have it any other way. I can't wait to move in with him soon =]

I'm getting closer to Jenna. I'm happy, I want to be in her life and her new babies life.

<3
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[21 Jan 2007|05:27pm]
I miss my old best friend.




to bad I realized the other day I will NEVER get her back.
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[14 Jan 2007|01:05pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I have three hours before I go to my cousins wedding and I am sitting at work bored.

I am feeling better than I did a couple of days ago. I feel like lately I've been thinking so negative. I need to get over the bad stuff and just move on. I need to stop worrying about the things that have happened in the past and move on to the future. I can't change what happened in the past, all I can do is try to prevent it now.

I've decided to try to be happy about every situation that I come across. I'm tired of fighting with everyone to prove a point when it really doesn't even matter. If I know the point is there and I know it's right, why do I have to convince every one else that it is there and it's right?

I've lost that REALLY close relationship with three seperate people and I would love to get it back with all of them. I just don't know if I ever can but, I am going to try. I feel like we were good friends and it was great but, they found other friends and I don't blame them. I left the friendship, I grew apart from them and I'll admit I am jealous of any one that has a friendship with those girls like we did. It's hard to lose your best friends and know that you may never be the same with them again.

But, now I have my boyfriend, I have my family and I have those few people that I can really trust with everything. I feel like I am living life without the excitement and that needs to change.

<3

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[13 Jan 2007|05:53pm]
Random =].Collapse )
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[11 Jan 2007|10:13pm]
I have a good job.
I graduated highschool.
I have a great family.
I have an AMAZING boyfriend of a year and three months.

and yet I am still unhappy. I have no clue what makes me feel this way and I have no idea how to figure it out. I have even been thinking about death a lot. It's weird. I feel like I should be really happy but, I'm not.
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Memories Last Forever. [11 Jan 2007|02:12pm]
[ mood | Bored ]

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Lots of pictures from New York.Collapse )

P.S.
I miss Stephani. =[. I think she hates me.

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wow. [02 Jan 2007|11:42pm]
So, I'm in New Jersey now.

It's cold.

Um, I am back in Naples on Thursday! WOO FREGGIN HOO. Hahaha. I have to go back to work and all that dumb shit.

ANYWAY, I can't wait to get home really though because I am back in my comfort zone in home =]

<3

Pictures when I get back in Naples promise!
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I'm back. [02 Jan 2007|01:15am]
[ mood | optimistic ]

I've spent a good five days in New York and one of the things I realized while I was here was that I need to start writing again.

So, I am and I am going to do it here again because it's easy.

Most of it will be private though BUT I will have MUCHO New York pictures soon! YAY

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[14 Jun 2006|04:00pm]
So I'm not writing in this journal anymore...

it's not really worth it?!

If you still want to keep in touch...

http://www.myspace.com/ecstaticlove.

Hit me up :D
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[14 Jun 2006|11:34am]
Richie made me feel like the most amazing girl in the entire world last night.

I love him. He's amazing.



Today:
-Go to Fashion Fresh and apply for a job.
-Hang out with Christie and whoever comes with her lol
-Adam is coming over with a bottle and a baggy. SWEET.
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