Quite Actin' Like A Female

I'm back after a long time.

2008-05-12T14:33:44Z

and I'm a completely different person than I was. I was reading old entries from a year ago and I was amazed at the difference in my life.

I've lost all of my friends because they got far to deep into my personal life. I'm trying really hard to grow up and they were holding me back.

I'm going to start writing in my livejournal again because I've deleted my facebook and my myspace. It was the smartest choice of my life.
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atychiphobic22 @ 2007-05-14T16:03:00

2007-05-14T20:01:03Z

It's been a while.

I have no job, sort of.
I have no money, sort of.
I love my life right now, sort of.

There's a lot of mixed up shit going on.

In general, things are just okay.

atychiphobic22 @ 2007-03-28T17:40:00

2007-03-28T21:32:49Z

I started my diet monday.

I have one thing to say about it.

It fuckin sucks.

atychiphobic22 @ 2007-03-13T14:55:00

2007-03-13T18:50:01Z

DAMNIT MAN.

I took today off from work because...I hate work?

Lol, I want a job I will actually ENJOY.

I want funnnn.

If you know this job. Let a bitch know.

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How do you feel about this?

2007-03-01T03:01:50Z

So, listen to this: I need more in my life. That question: Selfish? OR goal oriented OR bored?

Why does it seem like no matter how much one person has or how much they have earned and what they have gone through to earn it they still take what they have for granted and no matter what they seem to always want more. Weird. But, I am the same way. I have a lot but, I want more. I do take what I have for granted.

Um. I will write the rest of this later....

atychiphobic22 @ 2007-02-26T22:17:00

2007-02-27T03:18:42Z

I FUCKIN HATE MY LIFE.

I FUCKIN HATE MY LIFE...SO MUCH

I'M UNSURE ABOUT MY LIFE NOW.

Ah fuck that.

2007-02-25T18:42:45Z

I have never been so bored. HOLY SHIT.

I am going Monday to Collier Regional Hospital to see what I can do about getting a job there. I applied online too. I have to be "clean" though and I'm not.

Collin got fired from Petsmart, that makes it a lot easier to work there until I get a job in this hospital...hopefully.

Richie and I are doing AMAZING. We just had our 1 year 4 month anniversary.

I am moving into an apartment soon. TIGHT.

Pretty much, everything is going very well!
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atychiphobic22 @ 2007-01-30T13:57:00

2007-01-30T18:57:59Z

HAPPY MOTHER FUCKIN EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY TO ME.

Have a GOOD night.

atychiphobic22 @ 2007-01-26T19:42:00

2007-01-27T00:43:14Z

Collin.

YOU ARE AN IDIOT.

Thanks for nothing why you were here LOSER.

Anyway. Today was a good day and TONIGHT HOPEFULLY is going to be even BETTER.

I went CAPS crazy.

atychiphobic22 @ 2007-01-24T21:21:00

2007-01-25T02:24:55Z

I had a really good day today and I have tomorrow off so, I get to sleep in really late. Do you know how amazing that is? Really amazing.

I have this weekend off and I think I am going to the East Coast with Richie to see his aunt and his grandparents again. It should be fun.

I want another job when I turn 18 for more money but, I also don't want to lose Petsmart because I really like all of my co-workers now that I don't have to deal with Michelle. Agh. This sucks. I think I am still going to go to the Ritz for like 10 dollars an hour fo sho.

Everything is moving along very well, Richie and I are doing amazing I am happy with my job and have an oppurtunity to get a better one if I like, the only thing that is a little slower is the whole school thing. I need to apply to get into college as soon as I can so I can get started on the whole radiology thing.

ANyways, today was a really good day

atychiphobic22 @ 2007-01-22T23:51:00

2007-01-23T04:53:25Z

I'm 18 in 8 days and I have SO much to get accomplished in the three weeks afterwards.

First off. I am having a party =]

Today: I had a bad day at work and then the most amazing boyfriend in the enitire world gave me the greatest one year three month anniversary EVER. I love him more than I love anyone else. He is my life and I am his. We wouldn't have it any other way. I can't wait to move in with him soon =]

I'm getting closer to Jenna. I'm happy, I want to be in her life and her new babies life.

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atychiphobic22 @ 2007-01-21T17:27:00

2007-01-21T22:28:04Z

I miss my old best friend.

to bad I realized the other day I will NEVER get her back.

atychiphobic22 @ 2007-01-14T13:05:00

2007-01-14T18:11:13Z

I have three hours before I go to my cousins wedding and I am sitting at work bored.

I am feeling better than I did a couple of days ago. I feel like lately I've been thinking so negative. I need to get over the bad stuff and just move on. I need to stop worrying about the things that have happened in the past and move on to the future. I can't change what happened in the past, all I can do is try to prevent it now.

I've decided to try to be happy about every situation that I come across. I'm tired of fighting with everyone to prove a point when it really doesn't even matter. If I know the point is there and I know it's right, why do I have to convince every one else that it is there and it's right?

I've lost that REALLY close relationship with three seperate people and I would love to get it back with all of them. I just don't know if I ever can but, I am going to try. I feel like we were good friends and it was great but, they found other friends and I don't blame them. I left the friendship, I grew apart from them and I'll admit I am jealous of any one that has a friendship with those girls like we did. It's hard to lose your best friends and know that you may never be the same with them again.

But, now I have my boyfriend, I have my family and I have those few people that I can really trust with everything. I feel like I am living life without the excitement and that needs to change.

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atychiphobic22 @ 2007-01-13T17:53:00

2007-01-13T22:51:19Z

atychiphobic22 @ 2007-01-11T22:13:00

2007-01-12T03:12:58Z

I have a good job.
I graduated highschool.
I have a great family.
I have an AMAZING boyfriend of a year and three months.

and yet I am still unhappy. I have no clue what makes me feel this way and I have no idea how to figure it out. I have even been thinking about death a lot. It's weird. I feel like I should be really happy but, I'm not.

Memories Last Forever.

2007-01-11T19:37:49Z

*FIRST OFF. This is my new dog. Lily.

*Richie and I in the airport waiting to get on the plane.

*hahahahahahaha. whew.

*Me in the cab on the way into New York.

*On the Staten Island Ferry.

*Richie and I on the ferry heading back from Staten Island to Manhattan

*A big boat outside of the mall

*Me on the Empire State Building. It was FUCKIN freezing.

*In this little park behind Richie's Grandmas apartment.

*A central park squirrel!

*Street dancers in the subway.

*Dicks bar. There was this pig picture above the bar on the wall, it was weird.

*Richie.

*New York after it rained

*This is the Staten Island Ferry.

*a Bridge =]

*the city from the ferry.

*The city again

*Another picture of a bridge.

*Richie on a pink elephant. It has a rasta hat on WHHHAATT.

*Where Richie and I slept.

*Inside the subway

*Inside the subway again, I could have been arrested for taking pictures in there OOOPS.

*we saw a broadway show, this is inside Studio 54, where we saw it.

*Cool clock on the side of Circuit City.

*On a Metro Bus

*New York Pizza

*Union Square.

*Cool picutre of the city

*empire state building.

*Me sitting in front of a fountain

*richie in front of the same fountain

*Richie being Richie

*Time Square

*Time Square

*time square

*Time Square

*Robot guy.

*Really expensive crystal star.

*Rockafella center.

*The big Christmas Tree

*St. Patricks Cathedral

*Snowflakes on the side of a building, they like blinked on and off to music.

*the Dynasty Diner, we ate there every morning

*The apartment we stayed at. They are on the market for $3,000! It was TINY too.

*Inside the Dynasty

*NYPD BITCHES

*Inside the Holland Tunnel, I got in trouble by the cab driver because it's illegal to take pics there too

*Statue of Liberty

*the mall, it was three stories.

*water cab

*Ellis Island

*Ellis Island again

*On the Empire State Building

*Still on Empire State Building. I was shaking it was so cold, the video is better =]

*dessert at this really fancy restaurant

*Richie's dessert lol

*Cool

*Empire state building kiss!

*Empire State Building.

*Ground Zero. There was a memorial thing on the other side. I cried so hard. It had a timeline of 9/11 and these HUGE pictures that were taken in the city the day of. It was sad =[

*This building was so tiiight.

*Time Square

*Ground Zero

THE NEXT PICTURES ARE OF CENTRAL PARK.

P.S.
I miss Stephani. =[. I think she hates me.

wow.

2007-01-03T03:42:57Z

So, I'm in New Jersey now.

It's cold.

Um, I am back in Naples on Thursday! WOO FREGGIN HOO. Hahaha. I have to go back to work and all that dumb shit.

ANYWAY, I can't wait to get home really though because I am back in my comfort zone in home =]

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Pictures when I get back in Naples promise!

I'm back.

2007-01-02T05:15:11Z

I've spent a good five days in New York and one of the things I realized while I was here was that I need to start writing again.

So, I am and I am going to do it here again because it's easy.

Most of it will be private though BUT I will have MUCHO New York pictures soon! YAY

atychiphobic22 @ 2006-06-14T16:00:00

2006-06-14T20:04:14Z

So I'm not writing in this journal anymore...

it's not really worth it?!

If you still want to keep in touch...

http://www.myspace.com/ecstaticlove.

Hit me up :D

atychiphobic22 @ 2006-06-14T11:34:00

2006-06-14T15:35:55Z

Richie made me feel like the most amazing girl in the entire world last night.

I love him. He's amazing.

Today:
-Go to Fashion Fresh and apply for a job.
-Hang out with Christie and whoever comes with her lol
-Adam is coming over with a bottle and a baggy. SWEET.

atychiphobic22 @ 2006-06-13T22:55:00

2006-06-14T02:58:16Z

I ran out in the rain with four of my closest friends tonight. I laughed hard enough tonight to the point where tears were coming out of my eyes. I had never been so happy. It was an amazing feeling.

I look so much more crossing the blvd. for cars when I'm high...it's crazy and I got out of the truck right after it had just rained and it was amazing. It was so clear. It was so great.

I want this feeling more often. I want this atmosphere around all the time.

I even had fun with Doug, Amanda and Sam today.

today got better and that's all I asked for.

Things really can turn around. :D

Some days I feel like shit.

2006-06-13T21:29:55Z

I don't like my new job. I'm quitting.
I miss Richie more than I ever have. I would do anything to have him here with me.
I just wish everything was okay.
I feel like I'm missing something.
Nothing is okay right now.

atychiphobic22 @ 2006-06-12T22:12:00

2006-06-13T02:13:19Z

Richie wrote me a letter and it was amazing.

Went to Justins tonight and I tripped out like crazy. Super fun. I also chilled with Sarah, Sam, Rene, Robert, phil-kid, and Doug….

OH AND I GOT A JOB!

atychiphobic22 @ 2006-06-12T00:15:00

2006-06-12T04:15:54Z

Today Sarah and I went to King Richards and then Wendys.

Then we came home and watched movies.

Then Rene came over and now she is staying the night.

Today was fun. <3

atychiphobic22 @ 2006-06-11T00:53:00

2006-06-11T04:56:32Z

So.

Today was good except the fact that three of my best friends out of no where grilled me but, I won't speak of that on here because honestly I am over it already I don't know where it came from or anything so, I have spoken to all of them about it and it is up to them what they think.

This morning Christie was here until like 2 from staying with me and then I went to Sarah's house and chilled with her and Rene there and at my house and then Sarah and I went to dinner with my dad and step mom for his birthday and then we came home and had fun :D

Of course I talked to Richie and I love him and kjdfasldfjaslkdj all that good stuff.
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